Star

I wished upon a Star.

And watched it float from afar.

Never knowing it wasn’t my star.

It already knew another’s call.

I climbed up in a tree.

Hoping for a sight to see.

All I see is other trees…

and people seeing what I want to see…

I have these crazy dreams.

Of people chasing me.

It makes no sense it seems.

Why must I always flee…

-OM

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Cloud

I looked upon a black cloud. It did not go away.

I placed in it all my pain. Still it stayed.

Shining rays of sun. It did not care.

My black cloud waved. Like her black hair.

I tried to dance between the rain. My falling bits of pain.

Tried to forget her name, till it drove me insane.

Now all that’s left is this black cloud. Won’t you go away?

My hanging memory of emotion felt. Your exit here to stay.

-OM

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Week

Monday night.

Sunday’s some day in the future.

I rest upon a Tuesday as we booze our way to Wednesday.

A Friday to ponder upon a forgotten day.

What day was it anyway?

I wish upon a perfect Saturday.

Never ending latter day of hours missed.

Finally a day just to be a day.

What will I do with it?

-OM

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Sex

As part of me cries into your hand.

You make me want more,

you make me want more.

Let’s do it all again.

My fingers walk the fine line between you and I.

A circle of want, as we want what we want.

Can I feel inside?

I feel you now, a firm grip around me.

You can feel it too.

Let’s do it all again, you whisper softly.

As I make love to you.

-Opinionated Man

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Star fart

I saw a star. I saw a star.

From afar it looked like a star.

Holy shit. It is a car.

The lights to me, like a call.

Ten men… out of one car?

My luck has surely fallen far.

I look left. Just to the left.

A single star laughs from afar.

-OM

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Closing 2013 – A HarsH ReaLiTy – A Look Back – Forward

If my posts have seemed a bit reflective that is because I have been stuck in that state this week. There is a reason. My first renewal payment for this domain is coming up and some might call me crazy, but I actually have juggled with the idea of not renewing it. I am going to write out the reasons why in this post, they aren’t complaints, they are simple realities.

I never knew what I was making here. I just did it. I have created something special through gathering a group of people that love to converse and share their thoughts on writing and the world. I believe, just from my numbers that I am forced to see from the dashboard, that there are about twenty times as many reading on a weekly basis that don’t comment and that is ok. The numbers still shock me sometimes. The popularity of this website is truly remarkable and it could never be what it is without the readers.

Many would consider this the end game and would probably sit back and run this site till they grew bored with it and moved on to a new blog in the future. Some might sell the domain if they were inclined, I actually thought about it at one point. It would have been a decision I would have regretted later. I know the reasons why it would have been a stupid idea, but at the same time I will admit the idea of it brought a temporary sense of relief. This website is a job to be honestly and I still have a real job I work at for 40 hours a week. I then also have two children and a wife with needs, not to mention a home that is secretly battling me and my pocketbook. You add in a couple hundred comments a day that need responding to, ten or so emails from wordpress followers as well, and then personal emails on top… and you have one busy ass schedule.

It has been an awesome year. I have enjoyed growing with this blog and having a place to quickly release my fears, passions, beliefs, and random rants when I want. The bloggers I have met, the challenges I have faced, the two eBooks I wrote, Project O, and the many guest bloggers I have encountered have all been a great experience. This website is now a fresh start though, excluding me sharing my past poetry. I will move on from here with new materiel only and I may even decide if a real novel is worth tackling. Who knows but 2014?

I will renew this website on January 3, 2014. One more year of HarsH ReaLiTy. I have adopted a new habit as well, one you all might be proud of. Any negative comments will be ignored and I have blocked bloggers I know do not like my work, what I am doing on WordPress, or really just me. That is cool there is plenty of room here for us all. Stay over there.

HarsH ReaLiTy will continue to be a place for my thoughts, dreams, and sometimes releases of anger. I hope you will continue to enjoy reading my chaos.

I want to say one final time before this post gets really out of hand and cheesy a heartfelt Thank You! Without you all that come here and read, I would never have written a lot of the things I got to write this year. So thank you.

Jason