I saw my life through a chandelier and realized no one was there.

It was as if I had awaken suddenly, alone on top of a hill.

The pretty lights, the flashing lights were all out of sight.

Fading like a failing vein, but everything was so bright.

Music gone. Where did it go, as silence falls like a storm.

I feel a pressure, around my heart. A feeling I can’t ignore.

Am I awake, or do I sleep. Am I really Me.

I say to myself as I feel above myself. A light turn on for me.





I don’t tie myself to any policy on post size. Most of what I post are bite size pieces of me. I love the freedom of being able to post whatever type of content I want on WordPress and restrictions on other sites frustrate me. That is probably why I only use WordPress as my primary platform for now.

I see you all sharing sides of yourself you may not share with the world. The courage to show the sides of you that you might not always be proud of.

Do we fear the spoken word more than the written?

Write and find out.

I do daily. To push ourselves and find ourselves at the same time. I put current and past thoughts to rest with the pressing of a key. It helps me to know that I’ve finally posted about that and can move on.

I tuck those thoughts away in categories only I can save. And each day I write another part of me that becomes this blog.




Painted tears

I painted sadness on a wall with my tears. Painted fears to remember myself by, I become a shadow on a wall. I traced lines of myself till I saw myself. Until I’d drawn all the parts of me.




Blogging 101

I wish I’d stop writing these blogging posts as well. Thanks Gary, you can sit down now…

Everyone wants to know what the subscriber number means. This topic is constantly discussed because new people join all the time. If this conversation annoys you switch channels now. Go back to Real House Wives Gary

I’ll explain what mine means.

My blog says that 56,556 are subscribers to it. I’m a stand alone WordPress blog, meaning that number is all WordPress bloggers and doesn’t include other platforms. I love WordPress and WordPress (and the forum bunnies) love me back.

I don’t have 56,556 people that follow my blog. I know that for a fact because a few people are no longer with us and others move on. So how did I get that number if that many people don’t read my posts now?

Effort equals reward. I was working graveyard and had ten hours a night to talk to people from all over the world that were still awake for two years straight. Oddly many of you in the states were still awake as well… do any of you sleep? I was talking to people in India a ton in 2013 and even some middle eastern countries which I’ll admit made me wonder whether I was on some type of list. You can’t blame me for any riots, rebellions, or Springs… World.

I just don’t have the time or energy anymore and it shows in your connections and your reader. How many blogs you can visit and how many posts you can read… I honestly can’t do much of that right now. I don’t visit new bloggers joining WordPress this minute and I once tried to be the first.

I spent 4 years using the reader and tags to find people.

I connected with over 262,999 blogs and from those 55,000 or so connected back. In the grand scale of things those numbers are minuscule to how many blogs there are, how many bloggers are actively out there, and the large platforms that are endorsed and writing daily for the world. I’m a small time blogger, but I enjoy my space.

That’s how easy networking is and these new bloggers have even more platforms to push posts and views to a site to sell your product, book, or make money of views. So to answer the emails, yes it can be done. Do you have the time and energy?

I keep posting because I worked for the platform. It really is that simple. Ask Danny. I have regular readers, just not tens of thousands. There’s Linda, Helga, Bobby, Jimmy, Tom Tom, and Pep to name a couple.

Ok some of those names are made up. I’m so lonely now…

Mostly I have visitors and I still get a lot of those due to exposure. But you work for that as well.

And that is blogging 101 on the subscriber number. Mail your checks to me for the lesson.

-Opinionated Man



I drew an image of your heart and shaded it with color. Coloring it past the darkness that we feel sometimes inside ourself. I outlined the beauty I see when you smile at me. The love I feel when I see you draw the lines of your mind.





Today we sacrificed a pig, killed some potatoes with a knife, and guillotined some corn for a nice oven steam pot broil!

By “we” I mean I did…

Company coming over… I need help cleaning. Volunteers?

Sorry for the missed comments this week. I’ll catch up. It’s been a long one and this next week will be even longer. But at least we have today. And I got beer.

Throwing up some decorations for a party we are having.

None of you are invited…

this is awkward now…