Decided a cleansing was needed. Stopped drinking for a day, gonna try and go for a week or longer.
Now before anyone asks, I’m not giving up drinking. What I’m giving up is this belly I’ve developed. You’d never realize how many calories are in a double scotch neat, but apparently the answer is a butt load. And no I’m not giving my collection away.
We bought an elliptical. Now I know I swore after the military I’d never exercise regularly again, something about people yelling at you to “move your ass” really kills the joy in running for fun. I love this elliptical though and it beats the hell out of running in 115 degree Arizona heat. Now I have no excuses!
It feels like I’ve been packing and unpacking for two years straight. We’ve finally settled into our new home in Cave Creek Arizona and I’m pretty happy to be in one place for awhile. The rental was beginning to become a headache and reminded me why I shouldn’t be renting at 39 anymore. I actually got in a shouting match with the landlord! Contrary to popular belief I’m not big on shouting. I’d rather just shoot die looks.
We love Cave Creek. It’s quiet, beautiful sunsets, and in two weeks I’ve only waved at one neighbor once.
Paradise to me!
Parts of it even feel like Colorado again like all the horses and ranches. It’s been hot as balls though and I’ve been running again which is torture in this heat. I like it though, no snow!!!
Got a new phone too! I’m so behind on tech which is really odd considering I’m an IT director, but I do love this new iPhone. Forgot my wordpress password and had to change it, I missed the virtual connection.
Life really isn’t about checks and balances, at least not to me. I view it more like an actual board game and sometimes the only move is to check and check and check till it’s a stalemate and you get some time to breath.
People often think being overly aggressive or always on the move is a bad thing. For many of us that incline to this nature it is more about not finding ourselves stagnant and comfortable. It’s when you get comfortable and think that nothing can touch you that the storm normally appears.
I’m finding that applies a lot to my current work life. It’s a forever game of catering to the idealism that I need to constantly prove what I’m worth. It’s a tiresome weave of doing and proving you are doing that really wears most people out. Some might say that’s corporate life, but I believe it’s really about how that corporation wishes you to live. You cannot thrive and grow in an environment where you are always wondering if you aren’t good enough. Eventually you lose the checks and balances mantra and start to only go one way or the other. Then it is either retreat or check, check, check till you are checked out.