Parenting

Dear Parents,

If you use the drop off lane at school for your kids please ensure you are following the proper procedure. If you have to get out of your car to help little billy out of his car seat you should be using the “take your ass to the parking lot” lane.

Not the drop off lane.

The drop off lane is for independent children that can quickly get out of the car so their parent can get his ass to work on time to make his 8:15 am meeting. That parent misses his meeting when little billy is actually baby billy and now your car just held everyone up! And you didn’t even pull up so others could drop off too, you stopped at the bend of the curve and kept everyone else lined up in the street while you gave hugs…

Jerk wagon.

Note: Obviously I have no idea what their real names were.

-OM

@smokendust

Depression Settles at the Bottom

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I don’t view depression as waves, at least not for me. My depression feels like white flakes in a snow globe and are activated when something shakes me to my core. I become the center and the space around me becomes my world, a world I cannot see. While blinded I feel my swinging mood aiming for me like a gauntlet and I am the fool that has entered into it blind. No matter how hard I try, I simply cannot escape.

It has been 17 years since I found out about my birth mom and my sister. It has been 12 years since I tried to kill myself the first time. It has been 9 years  since I found happiness again. Through those transitions I have relearned my depression. Through those years I have grown to accept it and myself.

People always want to fix things. Fix your smile so it looks just right, fix your attitude so it fits your new smile, and while we are at it let’s fix your past so you can finally move on. Depression? Take these meds, a few more pills. Lay back down on this couch… aren’t you comfortable yet? Tell me about your problems so I can tell you why they aren’t really issues. Let me know all your concerns so I can explain how you created them. Men and women in white coats scribbling your life away in a second. Trying to find the answers when we don’t even know the question.

Depression settles at the bottom. It never goes away. It never “finally leaves.” When happiness slams the door who is the first to notice and peep their head from waiting closet? Who knows just the right words to whisper in your ear so that you question the answers you once had?

Feelings come like a shaking sun and all you can do is stand there in your crystal prison and wait.

Waiting for depression to settle once more.

-Opinionated Man

Jason C. Cushman

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