Politics

The ugly thing about social media is that you get to see friends and church members fight over topics and subjects we’ve always ignored because they aren’t important to our friendship and fellowship. Regardless of your political beliefs in a country that allows you the freedom to vote as YOU want to, also practice the freedom of ignoring what YOU disagree with. Don’t allow politics to break US like it sometimes tears this nation. We can still walk in the same direction in life without agreeing on everything.

Jason

Dreams

I sat upon a Star.

Watching my feet hang from afar.

Like leaves in the wind.

As they swing again and again.

I thought about a dream.

A hidden passion within me.

Inescapable thoughts.

Of inner struggles I have fought.

Till I burned inside.

A cauldron here resides…

Becomes a burning flame.

Another star the sky does gain.

-OM

Chasing happiness

Like a sigh of sweat red wine.

A whispered goodbye that never dies.

I feel it like a tap on my shoulder.

A look back I can’t remember.

Chasing happiness with a pen.

Chasing happiness within.

Not knowing the definition.

Only that there’s a destination.

A point I am supposed to reach.

Something no one can teach.

It all ends in a sigh.

As we chase that which can’t be defined.

-OM

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Depression Settles at the Bottom

I don’t view depression as waves, at least not for me. My depression feels like white flakes in a snow globe and are activated when something shakes me to my core. I become the center and the space around me becomes my world, a world I cannot see. While blinded I feel my swinging mood aiming for me like a gauntlet and I am the fool that has entered into it blind. No matter how hard I try, I simply cannot escape.

It has been 20 years since I found out about my birth mom and my sister. It has been 14 years since I tried to kill myself the first time. It has been 11 years since I found happiness again. Through those transitions I have relearned my depression. Through those years I have grown to accept it and myself.

People always want to fix things. Fix your smile so it looks just right, fix your attitude so it fits your new smile, and while we are at it let’s fix your past so you can finally move on. Depression? Take these meds, a few more pills. Lay back down on this couch… aren’t you comfortable yet? Tell me about your problems so I can tell you why they aren’t really issues. Let me know all your concerns so I can explain how you created them. Men and women in white coats scribbling your life away in a second. Trying to find the answers when we don’t even know the question.

Depression settles at the bottom. It never goes away. It never “finally leaves.” When happiness slams the door who is the first to notice and peep their head from waiting closet? Who knows just the right words to whisper in your ear so that you question the answers you once had?

Feelings come like a shaking sun and all you can do is stand there in your crystal prison and wait.

Waiting for depression to settle once more.

Jason C. Cushman

-Opinionated Man

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Open me

Open me, come open me. Open up my heart.

Remind me where we came from by showing me the start.

Sing to me, you sing to me. I hear you in my soul.

Let you overwhelm me with a feeling of being full.

Feel me how you feel me. I can feel you too.

I can feel as we feel past all we ever knew.

Open me, I open up. An open heart for you.

Forever is our ever as only known by few.

Jason Cushman

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Memory Eternal

I saw it in the heavens, in the stars.

A host of new angels traveling somewhere far.

Their flight was like a magical sight.

And yet I knew it felt just right.

An image imagined without the pain.

The memory eternal of the slain.

-OM

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