Daily Denver

We miss you Peyton.


I miss you.

I sometimes take your card out and look at it. Normally when He Who Will Not Be Named is playing. When that’s not enough we chat of course… here…

You haven’t returned any of my texts yet, you must have a new number.


Your biggest fan.




If you are wondering, “god did that just happen?”

Yes it did.


I’ll admit I have a few fears. I just witnessed one of them this week.

My grandmother passed away from Alzheimer’s disease a bit ago. My best friend’s mother passed away from Louie Body Dementia this past week, a new disease for me to add to my fear list. Louie Body is much like Alzheimer’s, it robs you of any dignity you have earned from your lifespan. It takes you from an adult back down to the status of a child and in the end they either whither away and die or they starve to death.

In the past five years I saw a woman go from my best friend’s mom, a woman my wife vividly remembers because of her openness and kindness when meeting her the first time, to a woman I barely recognized but still deeply felt connected to. I cannot imagine what it is like to lose yourself.

This blog, this place I’ve built for myself here… It is the image of my mind. These diseases that cause you to lose what I hold most precious scare me. What are we without our memories? What is a life if you don’t even remember living it?

You know some people make the statement that they want to be written into a book so they can be remembered forever.

I just want to remember myself and all I love till my last breath. That’s all I ask really, to be able to have that last blink and hopefully slide out one last thought that maybe it was worth it after all.

-Opinionated Man




I could shine a light into the night.

But why would I want to see the night?

Even when I close my eyes it’s not right.

The dreams. The night terrors. It’s never right.

I could run a mile but never gain an inch.

Just an inch. Half an inch.

I’ll take what I can get.





I bet on myself and I succeeded.

It feels good.

When I went to Memphis I was in the middle of compliance. If you are in finance or Healthcare you feel my pain. Auditing, compliance, or security operations examination can be excruciating if you run a team. I work in FINTECH (financial technical industry) and it can be hell.

Today I made the deadline.

The deadline was today.

That was closer than I anticipated…

This scotch smells like victory.




Memory eternal

Quick trip to M town for the funeral. It was definitely a sad one, but it was also good to see all my friends from Jackson I haven’t seen in a long time.

It’s a stark reminder of how old my friends and I are getting, and how old our parents are.

It’s never easy when someone passes. It’s very hard when it is your best friend’s mom.