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Chasing Hope

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Hope is a funny thing. Such a blessing at times and a poisonous curse at others, it can cause you to do the craziest things. One day you are content with your life and then Hope knocks at your door. She tells you that your life is not complete and that you must travel across an ocean to seek something […]

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Changing Lanes

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I find myself coasting lately and I dislike it. The middle lane is for coasting, the right lane is for the slow pokes, and the left lane is obviously the fast lane. This is the lane where the speeders dwell, the ones that know where they are headed in life. They zip past those in the other two lanes and […]

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Gifts of a Stranger

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Gifts of a stranger, a nameless man who in some societies would be called my father. A man I have never met, and yet I receive a gift from him every day it seems. With the coming of age comes the revealing of his face. I see it in the mirror, even if I have never dreamed it. My hand […]

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Shattered Glass

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Shards of a broken heart create stepping stones from Eastern coast. They create a path that leads back home, but where is home to those that were abandoned? As I tenderly step across the white tipped waves I see myself reflected in cacophonous imagery. I am overwhelmed by each step as I live a lifetime in each moment. What could […]

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In Loving Memory

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Her name was Kitty. She was an elderly woman at my church and that is all I knew to start off, other than the fact that suddenly I had been “tasked” with fixing random stuff at this old woman’s apartment. I believe that if you had asked me on the first day going to Kitty’s house what my feelings were […]

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The Night of the Big Game

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It is a Friday night and I am just now getting ready for the school football game. It is my sophomore year of high school and things have changed somewhat. My friends and I are able to drive, life is a little bit more fun, but the bullying still exists on a frequent occasion. I yell that I am leaving […]

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A Story of Two Rings

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I have been asked only three times the story behind my two rings. Most males, obviously, wear only one ring. The second ring is not an engagement ring; it is actually a second wedding ring. I have lost 2 wedding rings in my life. One was due to… circumstance. The other fell off my finger at my old job. I […]

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vLog – A Book of Triggers Page 1- By: Jason C. Cushman

If I were to imagine a book of life it would best be described as a book of triggers. For what is life other than a slowly revealed circle of need, want, and more need? My book of triggers has always been my journals that I have kept throughout my life. Triggering thoughts, feelings, and emotions of the moment laid […]

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You are a Poor Writer

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I was told in the 11th grade by my teacher that I was “a poor writer and I should consider finding something else to be good at.” It angered me because this termagant had no clue of my love for reading and the written word. Just because I didn’t see her “images” of Thoreau suddenly I was inferior? I did […]

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Hoping to Die

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There was a time in my life when the land was covered in darkness. It did not matter what time of the day it was there was simply no light. I walked the world a ghost and prayed to any god that would listen that he or she would simply end it for me. I wanted to die. I wrote […]

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The Day We Killed Jesus

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As I grow older I sometimes catch myself lost in reflection upon specific times of my life. Usually when this happens it is a pain point I am revisiting as I ponder a decision or lack thereof I have made during situations in my past. His name was Josiah. We laughingly called him Messiah because that is funny right? Well […]

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