I created this blog January 3rd, 2013.
Today I got billed again, I guess I’ll keep going another year since it auto charged me.
My dream last night was horrible and frustrating… my wife left me and my kids were gone and I couldn’t find them. This dream was particularly painful because for some reason I was in Korea and she suddenly disappeared with my Gracie. I’m not sure where Anna was.
My focus though was suddenly on searching for an address on my phone. All I could do was keep trying, but the search function kept not working.
I tried over and over.
It was the address for my birth mom in Busan.
I was so focused on that, I couldn’t run to my wife and kid each time I saw them. It was like I was trapped between two wants.
What’s particularly sad is – I’ve given up looking for my birth mom and sister and have tried to move on.
I don’t even want to see them anymore, but I’d die if I lost my wife and kids. So this dream was particularly fucked up.