I read an article and it said to write my dreams and nightmares out to resolve them.
Harvey from Suits is my father suddenly.
Me and some guys are trying to find someone. One of the guys gives the bad guy some drink which he mixed in some disgusting lard. The bad guy is throwing up and I wake up trying to throw up.
( I fall back asleep)
Back in the dream and I’m trying to escape Harvey’s house now. Then I’m on FaceTime and my daughter is on, but she doesn’t want to talk to me because I’m not there. I’m crying and feel the sadness of not seeing her for a long time.
(I wake up for seconds)
I run out a house in my dream and I’m searching for someone to give me a thousand dollars for some reason. The person doesn’t want to, but then I somehow hear Harvey tell her to just give it to me (like I’m watching a TV show suddenly) and she screams “what, you couldn’t wait for your fucking money? Here! Take it!”
Then the goblins from Lord of the Rings show up and try to eat me over a fire pit.
(I wake up trying to scream)
I don’t know if you’d call that a nightmare or too much TV. I have horrible dreams now and I’m waking up constantly. The worst ones are now when I go back to sleep and fall back into my dream. I may go see a doc soon, but I won’t take sleep pills again due to my past attempts and they lock me in my dreams and I can’t escape.
But I need to find some relief.