Pain Management

I manage pain by managing where I feel the pain. It is not a matter of if when it comes to the struggle. It is simply a matter of when we will struggle with the struggle. There is no winning in this contest of will because it is our will against us. It is ourselves that we fight.

I drink a drink until there is nothing left of me. Until the anger has died and the pain has retreated for another day. It never leaves, it never flees. It simply decides to be somewhere else for the moment and I appreciate that moment as long as it lasts. As long as it lets me.

I have never been a cutter, but I have loved to bleed. I have romanced the rush of feelings that come as swiftly as only pain can. As only man-made pain can make you feel. Bleeding regret until there is only bliss, I have felt that need inside of me. You never see as clearly as you do when you are in pain. The clarity is so bright it makes your eyes die to reality and all you feel is the fantasy you have created. I love it.

You manage your happiness while I manage my pain. You manage your smiles while I find ways to smile. We learn to live within ourselves because we are the only lives we get.

So I move the pain around and make room for living.

Another day to breath, another day to feel… another day to feel the pain inside of me.

-OM

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15 thoughts on “Pain Management

  1. Hello OM, if this is about physical pain, I have lived with pain – medium to severe for years off and on until a recent surgery. I learned to relax into it and meditate, and this would reduce the pain to a level where paracetamol did the rest.
    I have also lived with laryngitis for 2 years, and had to cope with loss of family members. And I was just not able to talk. Meditation helped me by giving me an outlet- I would meditate by thinking about how I felt and being grateful for my situation – it’s called the attitude of gratitude in the school of meditation I follow. I’ve been doing it for years and it’s changed my life. I am now hoping to learn Buddhist chanting- have always wanted to and now, have found an organisation that will teach it.
    Just wanted to share this, because I feel so strongly that acceptance and gratefulness can help rise above pain so we get something positive out of it. I
    And look back on every situation and see how it has been a lesson on growth.

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