The Dark

I feel blind. Without my medication there is no poetry, no desire to write… I see words and thoughts, but they slip from my grasp like smoke. There is just a blank sheet. It feels like a disease… like I am a child again. I hate this feeling. I seem to only be able to express myself in short sentences. I don’t feel like conversing. I hate you. I hate me. It will get better… just not today. Not today.

They walk by the window and observe the closed sign hanging from a chain. It is an oddity, a puzzle. There is just nothing here right now.

-OM

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19 thoughts on “The Dark

  1. I feel like that sometimes, uninspired, sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself, I try not to stay in this mode for long, it’s not enjoyable for me or anyone I assume, sometimes you just have to push, push hard just to get out of that hole, if you out of that hole maybe you may be inspired to do something for that day.

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  2. If I don’t get enough sunlight and exercise I feel this way too ❤ I used to be on wellbutrin for panic attacks over 20 years ago and it did awful things to my creative process. Especially when I got off of it. I tried prozac and several others as well. They were even worse for getting in the way of seeing reality as it is and dealing with it correctly.

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    • Glad to get another POV. I guess we are all different. I was on Prozac for one week & went off immediately, swearing I would never go on another antidepressant again.
      A doctor I know who is also a healer believes that we can’t heal until we get off the drugs, legal or illegal.
      Peace, love & great mental health to all,
      Sherrie
      Sherrie Miranda’s historically based, coming of age, Adventure novel “Secrets & Lies in El Salvador” is about an American girl in war-torn El Salvador:
      http://tinyurl.com/klxbt4y

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  3. I know what you mean, I dont take medication, but I have days where its like I dont friggen care and whats the point. Thise days are almost more like a dream than real life.

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