I am sure MANY OF US can share your thoughts on this post. I am sorry to hear you can never “shine” in front of those that obviously mattered to you. At some point though you will have to accept your own successes and accomplishments as “good enough” for you. Nice post and hopefully you don’t mind me rebooting it. -OM
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Originally posted on Insomnia, Nightmares and General Madness:
Being ill and possessed of a somewhat foul temper today, I’m being reflective and somewhat bitter. Being grumpy about family issues, primarily. As I’ve mentioned before, I’ve been writing for almost thirty years now, beginning with bad Mario Bros. fanfic at the age of 6 on a purloined typewriter from my dad’s closet and progressing to D&D knockoff fiction before finding something resembling my own style, voice and subject matter. That’s fairly common knowledge. Also fairly common knowledge is that I’m a trifle manic depressive, suffer extensively from “I’m never good enough” logic and a lack of self-esteem.
One of the roots of those, at least as it pertains to my writing, is my parents. I know, everyone’s got an axe to grind in that department, and I typically have little to no sympathy for those who blame all their life’s troubles on “Mommy didn’t love me enough, waaaaaaaah.” But…
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